Ah, the long awaited ramblings of my mind...The odds of anyone I care reading this? At this point I could really care less. I have neglected this outlet for quite sometime and realized that this too is a form of therapy that is free no less. So after approximately a month and a half after my 25th birthday I see that I may be traveling a path that I thought would never come fast enough. Many of my friends were worried that I was going to have my 'quarter life crisis', I scoffed at the idea and went about my birthday...exactly one week later I had a mini breakdown that was set off by numerous mini events that I won't go into at this time. Nevertheless, the predictions were true and I felt that a HUGE lifestyle change was in order. Well, the lifestyle hasn't changed but at least I feel that I have made steps towards a larger picture.

Identity is now becoming less of a question as I grow into the person that I've so wanted to be for so long. The imperfections of my persona are being welcomed by my stregnths and in turn are building who I am as a person. I'm running and often stumbling with these thoughts and at times all of it seems overwhelming. Those are usually the days prior to my crimson flow, and as of now I disregard those days as nothing more than the usual hormonal imbalance of a female in her mid-twenties.

I wait impatiently for changes to come, as if tomorrow I were to have a completely different life.

I digress...I return...I digress...that took about twenty minutes.

Let's leave this unfinished...